Apologies...

To everyone (Ashley) who has been upset that I haven't updated my blog here it goes.... :) For the past few weeks Keagan has been really sick. He keeps getting ear infections and right now he has a small one in his left ear but a really bad one in his right ear. For anyone who has gone through this " I am SO SO SORRY" this is the worst thing possible. He can't tell me what's wrong so all he does is cry. I feed him, change his diaper, give him a bath, rock him, let him have his binkie, put him in his jumper, set him on the floor, and ALL he does is cry, then I cry, then we start over...I feed him, change his diaper- you get the point. He doesn't sleep and I don't sleep. A couple nights ago he fell asleep and grunted the whole night because he was in such pain. I can't wait for these things to go away... I do have to be thankfull all it is- is an ear infection. On that note I should mention Kyle's best friend lost his sister just in the past couple days... It's never easy seeing someone pass, but there is something about being a mom and seeing a child pass. Your whole perspective changes. I do know God has taken this little girl for a reason, but it doesn't stop feelings of anger or sadness. She was young and innocent, but all things happen for a reason and we have to believe that...if we didn't we wouldn't have anything to live for. Anyone who prays - pray. Just pray.